Tuesday, May 21, 2013

"W" stands for you're a loser.

Sometimes, I get an idea.  Sometimes, said idea is a really fricken stupid idea, yet I still go through with it.

I recently got the idea that I wanted to go back to school.  So I registered and paid for classes.  My boss agreed to help foot the bill of said continuing education endeavor.  Sweet, right?  Yes, very much so.  I am very lucky to have supportive people around me.

I took 2 classes during the spring semester and Aced them both.  Hell yeah, I could do this.

Then I got the wild hair up my ass that I should take a summer I class.  Yeah.  A normal 3 month class squeezed into 6 weeks.  And what subject did this brainiac decide I'd like to be tortured in?  Math.  I am not a math genius.  Hell, I can add/subtract/divide/multiply like a champ but that's about the extent of what my brain remembers.  I've been in the work force since I was 16 and that's the only math I've used.

Anyways, I registered for Intermediate Algebra.  I only had 1 option for a night time professor at the campus by our house, so I took him.  Even though I could tell by his name he was definitely russian.  Let's just say, worst professor ever.  No patience, did not explain any concepts, english was his 4th language so you can imagine how hard it was to understand him, and when someone asked a question he berated us that "this is easy!!" and what was wrong with us?  I knew after the first class that I should drop it.  But I listened to other people and stayed in.  I've been staying up until sometimes midnight or 3 a.m. trying to get all of the homework and quizzes done.  I've put in more than 100% and I just couldn't seem to get the hang of it.  So what'd I do?  Went to campus today and withdrew.  Feeling stupid, defeated, and more importantly annoyed that I was now out about $500 (tuition, books, mathXL.)

And while I do feel defeated today, and pretty sad ...I'm happy that I will have the opportunity to re-take the class and actually understand the concepts.  I won't have to try and cram all of that information into my brain in a short period of time.

So basically, I learned a lesson.  A very expensive lesson.  Always trust your instincts.  No one learns the same.  You're the one attending class, not other people.  Do what's best for you, and always, always give 100%.

Sorry for the rambling, but I needed to get that off my chest.  Hope ya'll had a fabulous weekend.


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

30 by 30

Okay ya'll, so I was feeling so discouraged.

I was eating well (or so I thought), and busting my butt working out and NOTHING was happening.  Sure, my clothes were getting looser but I wanted that magical number on the scale to start going down.  I decided to do something drastic.


I joined a chicks only boot camp.  And it's actually been fun!  I've been 7 times in the last 16 days and so far have lost a total of 5.1 lbs.  Yes, the .1 totally counts.  It just feels so good to start seeing the scale move again.


The crazy thing?  I am eating so much more, but I'm also sticking to a paleo diet.  I guess I should use that term loosely because I had a few beers last Saturday, and once in awhile I'll have a piece of chocolate after dinner.  But besides that, no cheating.  Coffee black.  Eggs & chia seeds & veggies for breakfast.  Boring food, but nutritious food and I'm okay with that. 

It feels weird that I just realized I am actually starting to achieve my birthday goal.  Sure I still have almost 25 lbs. to lose before my birthday, but I'm getting there.  Finally.

Hope you're all having a fabulous week.  We got major rain here tonight, so we're just relaxing on the couch since the beau has been out of town the past few days.  We've got some catching up to do.  ;)