Weekend update

So it came back.  The motivation.  I was just thinking about how I've lost 10 lbs. so far and I can't stop now.  Unfortunately, I've always quit because it's just so much easier to do than put in the work.  I've been "dieting" for as long as I can remember.  Probably since 4th good.  Off and on, off and on, goodness it can be exhausting.  Although I did totally stuff my face hole with sushi & sake last night, but a girls gotta eat...right?

Anyways, while I was looking for inspiration on the internet, I was mainly looking for a WOD (workout of the day.)  I can NEVER find something that just tells me what to do!  I need a workout plan written out for me.  I made this one up while I was being a shithead and missing boot camp, so here ya go.  I actually had fun creating this!

We went out for sushi last night and it was so damn good.  I had been craving it for awhile so we finally found a place close to the house & it did not disappoint.  I'm not sure what the rest of the weekend has in store for us, but we will see.  Hope you all are having a fabulous weekend

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Where the eff did my motivation go? I want it back.

I have been in a sort of "funk" lately and I'm ready for it to go away.  I don't know if it's because I'm a month away from my 30th birthday, the fact that I don't currently have school to occupy my time & teach me something new, or what...but man, I'm so over it.  I was doing so, so, so good with bootcamp and I've been slacking on that as well.  Granted, I have been doing my own workout routines and jogging to get ready for this 5K but I feel a general dissatisfaction with life in general.  I'm not sure what it is.   I used to get a similar restless type feeling a few years ago, and I'd dye my hair, or get something pierced, or go crazy for a week or 2 and it'd be gone.  I'm past doing any of those things (except the hair dying thing), so I've gotta find something else to do.

I just really need to kick my own ass.  I get very frustrated that losing weight feels like it takes for.ev.er and I just want to give up.  Then I realize I've already lost 10 lbs. and I need to stick with it.  Nothing good happens if you don't work for it.

I'm willing to work for it.  Need to just get rid of the no-tivation.  Help me, ya'll!  And I promise, I'll help you.  :)

I think I'm going to throw up.

Okay, I feel sick.  Wanna know why?  Because I just signed up for my first 5K.  And it’s in 28 days.  And I am not anywhere near the shape I should be in.  I’ve been doing boot camp for almost 2 months now, so my endurance is pretty good, but damn…5K?!  It’s official, I’ve lost “it.”  Tell me if you find “it.”

Update:::::

I decided to skip boot camp tonight and go for a run.  I did pretty terrible, not gonna lie.  What the hell did I get myself into?  Ha!

This is my "da fuq did I sign up for?" face:

"W" stands for you're a loser.

Sometimes, I get an idea.  Sometimes, said idea is a really fricken stupid idea, yet I still go through with it.

I recently got the idea that I wanted to go back to school.  So I registered and paid for classes.  My boss agreed to help foot the bill of said continuing education endeavor.  Sweet, right?  Yes, very much so.  I am very lucky to have supportive people around me.

I took 2 classes during the spring semester and Aced them both.  Hell yeah, I could do this.

Then I got the wild hair up my ass that I should take a summer I class.  Yeah.  A normal 3 month class squeezed into 6 weeks.  And what subject did this brainiac decide I'd like to be tortured in?  Math.  I am not a math genius.  Hell, I can add/subtract/divide/multiply like a champ but that's about the extent of what my brain remembers.  I've been in the work force since I was 16 and that's the only math I've used.

Anyways, I registered for Intermediate Algebra.  I only had 1 option for a night time professor at the campus by our house, so I took him.  Even though I could tell by his name he was definitely russian.  Let's just say, worst professor ever.  No patience, did not explain any concepts, english was his 4th language so you can imagine how hard it was to understand him, and when someone asked a question he berated us that "this is easy!!" and what was wrong with us?  I knew after the first class that I should drop it.  But I listened to other people and stayed in.  I've been staying up until sometimes midnight or 3 a.m. trying to get all of the homework and quizzes done.  I've put in more than 100% and I just couldn't seem to get the hang of it.  So what'd I do?  Went to campus today and withdrew.  Feeling stupid, defeated, and more importantly annoyed that I was now out about $500 (tuition, books, mathXL.)

And while I do feel defeated today, and pretty sad ...I'm happy that I will have the opportunity to re-take the class and actually understand the concepts.  I won't have to try and cram all of that information into my brain in a short period of time.

So basically, I learned a lesson.  A very expensive lesson.  Always trust your instincts.  No one learns the same.  You're the one attending class, not other people.  Do what's best for you, and always, always give 100%.

Sorry for the rambling, but I needed to get that off my chest.  Hope ya'll had a fabulous weekend.

30 by 30

Okay ya'll, so I was feeling so discouraged.

I was eating well (or so I thought), and busting my butt working out and NOTHING was happening.  Sure, my clothes were getting looser but I wanted that magical number on the scale to start going down.  I decided to do something drastic.

I joined a chicks only boot camp.  And it's actually been fun!  I've been 7 times in the last 16 days and so far have lost a total of 5.1 lbs.  Yes, the .1 totally counts.  It just feels so good to start seeing the scale move again.

The crazy thing?  I am eating so much more, but I'm also sticking to a paleo diet.  I guess I should use that term loosely because I had a few beers last Saturday, and once in awhile I'll have a piece of chocolate after dinner.  But besides that, no cheating.  Coffee black.  Eggs & chia seeds & veggies for breakfast.  Boring food, but nutritious food and I'm okay with that. 

It feels weird that I just realized I am actually starting to achieve my birthday goal.  Sure I still have almost 25 lbs. to lose before my birthday, but I'm getting there.  Finally.

Hope you're all having a fabulous week.  We got major rain here tonight, so we're just relaxing on the couch since the beau has been out of town the past few days.  We've got some catching up to do.  ;)

Tons-o-weekend Fun

Had a fabulous time this weekend spending it with the beau's family.  It was his nephew's first birthday, and true to fashion, the beau's SIL threw an amazing party!  Seriously, I don't know how she does it.  She always has the most amazing food and desserts it will pretty much make you drool on yourself.  

I always love it when the LO & his cousins get together.  He just loves it so much, and has a fun time that it's all he talks about for quite awhile.

After the party fun on Saturday, we ventured out to Lake Eola on Sunday morning.  They were having a farmers market, and a free book event for the kids.  Lunch at Panera, and then we were in the car for the 2 hour drive home.  

It wasn't a very eventful weekend, but it was fun.  Good, quality family time.  That's the stuff memories are made of.

The LO wanted to dress his cousin up...I die.  Too much cuteness. 

Some of the desserts...ugh, I stayed away from it all thankyouverymuch. 

Ugh...I am so jelly of Kristen's skinny ass legs. 

This is my tall drink of water showing me how to stretch my aching calves...mmm yeah, about that. 

Look at this big ass birds nest!  That bird was definitely close to poking my eyeball out.

Hope everyone survived their Monday!

30 by 30

Oh, where to start with this post?

I thought about quitting this weekend.  Just giving up.  I can't seem to control myself on the weekends.  I eat like my life depends on it.  I drink like I'm in a college frat some weekends.  I gained a few pounds.  I really did think about quitting.

Then I told myself NO.  There has to be something else that will work for me.  So, I joined a boot camp.  No lie.  I worked out yesterday morning.  I am so not a morning person.  But I went.  And got my ass kicked for a full hour.  It was brutal and I can barely walk.  So I skipped the boot camp today, but will run tonight.  And be back at boot camp tomorrow.

I just see people around try with such minimal effort and they lose.  And here I am, all big and uncomfortable.  So I will keep going.  Not give up like I usually do.  Something will happen, eventually.

Moral of the story:  everyone is different, never give up.  Even if it's sometimes hard as a mother effer.

Styles that leave your man thinking "what the eff"

...is this bitch wearing?  Now I know the beau doesn't refer to me as a bitch, ever, because he's smarter than that, but there are times when it would be totally appropriate:

What kinda weird makeup job is that?  Why does she look like a cat?

Whoa!  Who's she going to stab with those nails?

Wow!  Those shorts are short...(said no man ever.)

So I guess there are exceptions to every rule.  

Anyways, I recently found out there are some things that women do that leave men totally scratching their head.  Of course I only found this out because I am totally guilty of a few of these and the beau finally fessed up.  Here's the list of things you wear/do that will leave your man wondering who started this fashion trend and why you decided to hop on the train.

Black nails.  I am so guilty of this.  I love black nails.  Maybe it's because they match my soul (kidding), or maybe because I'm not really good at washing my hands and they hide the dirt under my nails?  I really have no idea why I'm so in love with black nails, I just am.  So this trend is staying.  

While we're on the subject of nails, let's talk super pointy nails.  No, you are not a kitty cat.  No, your nails should never be used as weapons.  Unless of course you're Lady Gaga.  I'm sure that chick is into some weird shit.  She does wear meat dresses, after all.  These nails are a no, no, no.  Unless you want your man to run away from you in the bedroom.  Then they're a major do!

Let's talk leopard.  Now, I guess I should probably clarify with my beau if men hate all leopard print, or just ridiculous iPhone cases.  Either way, I bought this gorgeous cover and he says "what IS that thing? It's hideous!!"  Again, I will keep this trend.  Because I love all things leopard print thankyouverymuch.

Let's talk hair.  I love buns.  My hair is almost to my ass crack.  It's long, it's thick, it can be a royal pain in the  the b-hole.  Buns are my go-to hair do when I don't have much time.  Apparently men hate them.  It's true, they even dedicated a whole "King of Queens" episode about it.  Oh well, this is another one of my "styles" that is staying.  I might even throw in a sock bun here and there to really make him question what's going on.

Speaking of hair, how do you feel about the "poof?"  Apparently it makes the male species question what the hell you've done to yourself.  I wore it other day around the LO (who is only 5) and he says "Ms. Cole, what's wrong with your hair?" I couldn't help but laugh.  And once upon a time, I had a horrible bangs...in the Summer...in Florida...so my bangs constantly stuck to my forehead.  The poof helped get rid of that.  I don't care what any man says, I love the damn poof.  

Last thing that confuses the shit balls out of them:  statement necklaces.  They have no idea what's hanging around our necks.  The beau said he much prefers something dainty. Too bad for him, as I've purchased around 10 "statement" necklaces.  Know what statement I'm trying to make?  That I like big things on my chest.  Ha!  

What fashion items/styles do you wear/do that you think (or know) your beau thinks is totally weird?  I'm sure there are plenty we've missed.

Hope everyones having a great week!